Regrets are a slow acting poison

Stupid people don't realize how much they need people until it's too late..Unfortunately I am one of those stupid people, but not intentionally..In recent years mostly the year of my 30th i lost huge parts of my life. When mourning you try to look back at pictures and remember them. Unfortunately if any one was important to me, i wouldn't take pictures of them or with them. Because subconsciously i knew it was an acceptance of one day losing them. If you ever really looked at the key moments in your life..I mean really look..You would see that something else (fate, god,force of nature) was in play. Look back at the biggest milestones in your life and it would amaze you the difference of if you had said no, or not left the house that day or gone somewhere else. After a point if you're actually coherent. You can see everything that made you who you are today. Some will feel proud of the choices they've made, others not so much. The key to a long happy life is not having regrets. To be mindful of every action and not to act on emotion. An emotional state of mind is not a logical state of mind and you will be hurting after wards due to making rash decisions or hurting someone you truly do care about. Anger will take a kind happy person and eat them alive. I used to lash out at the world. I could never understand why i was dealt the hand i was dealt. As a child wishing for life to get better to an adult questioning why it never did. Luckily i found a way to come to terms. Not to excuse the wrongs done to me, but to look at the bigger picture. Learn from their mistakes and understand why they made them. For me at least i used to be a very unhappy and angry person, i felt like the whole world was to blame for my pain. I'd always acknowledge the bad but never accepted the good out of fear it was to good to be true. During that time frame i did nothing to help myself because i either thought less of myself or made excuses why things would never get any better. One day litterally out of the blue after the death of my best friend. I realized i had wasted years of my life being angry. So i started practing mindfulness. I wrote about my feelings, i confronted the people that hurt me, and i came to terms with the past. I began to be a optimist. To be greatful for everything even the little things. And a mindset of bad things do happen but things will get better. My struggles helped give me an understanding of the world few have. It made me capable to be understanding of others and to see through the front alot of people give to the world, and truly see them. I guess the point to all this is life is short...Regret is like a slow acting poison..take time to be mindful of yourself and live everyday like it was your last. Eventually you will find happiness.